Roads of Opportunity and Disappointment Often Overlap
It has been a very long time since I updated this blog. Part of the reasoning is that I haven’t felt anything major had been happening that everyone didn’t already know about. Another reason is time or lack there of. Lastly the blame can be placed on Facebook. I never realized how truely addictive facebook could be, until it has become my way of keeping up on the goings on of everyone.
So as the title reads I have been travelling down a couple different roads as of late. Lets discuss the road of opportunity first as it is the happy road. First and foremost in mid April I finally made the decision that yes in fact I am going back to Summit Camp for a fifth summer. I came to this decision partly based on the thought that I would be in Edmonton next year and it is a nice way to get out of here yet still be productive. The other reasoning was that as much as I enjoyed working at the Ranch I could get the same type of position when I came back from camp in September without a problem. So this decision has made it so that I can enjoy a final year of camp, see my foreign friends one last time and meet some new great people. It also adds one more year of working with the age range I plan to teach once I am finished my BEd. That brings up my second stop along the road of opportunity. I am going back to university in the fall for a BEd. At first I had applied to a few schools in Ontario, only to be rejected by two and put deep on the waiting list for another. So I went to plan B, I applied at a local college. However I did not have all the required courses. This meant that I had to do a Math course for three weeks in May. The course was quite useful in that it got me thinking in the university manner again, as well as I met a few great people. About a week into the course I got a package from the University of Ottawa, the school that put me on their waiting list, saying that I was ACCEPTED. This means that starting September 07 I will be a GeeGee. It’s a one year program so I will be living in Ottawa until late spring, possibly the summer 08. This has been quite exciting but stressful at the same time because I am having to try and complete as much of the preparations prior to leaving for camp. Another good thing of late is that I have met some new people and have been trying to spend more time with them when possible, or at the very least talking/chatting a lot more.
Now for the road of disapointment, for lack of a better word. With each of the happy things in my life has come some not so happy things. The first that relates to a couple of the aformentioned events is that I had to quit my fulltime job at the Ranch. This was saddening because the people there are amazing. Both the boys and the staff were always fun to be around and I could always look back on the night and recall something hilarious. Maybe I will work there again, maybe even as a teacher. Another tough thing of late has been the fact that I will be moving to Ottawa. It is going to be hard picking up and going knowing that I will be right back here in 8-12 months. What do I take? Do I treat it as acutally moving or is it just a long trip? Do I leave things open or should I tie up everything here first? I guess a lot of my questions would be things a person could discuss with their close friends, however that is yet another stop on this road of disappointment. I have been trying to meet up, gather, or even talk to my close friends however they all seem to be too busy to make plans. Some are even too busy to give a simple answer or to pick up the phone to answer a call. Sure there are reasons people can’t get together, or they don’t even feel like it. That’s fine I feel that way often too. However a simple answer or explaination is not too much to ask of a friend. The hardest part is knowing that this could be the last chance I have of seeing these friends for an entire year, minus one week in August assuming they are around when I come back from Camp. What can you say to a friend who is doing this? Nothing cause they won’t answer their phone!
It is interesting as things change in your life, even small little things you learn a lot about your friends and the people around you. Some of the things I discussed above came with great support from people who I haven’t talked to in years. Others came with a sense of closeness from a person I only met a month ago. It is amazing how much you learn about a person just from how they reach out and embrace you. I just wish I had more of these people in a closer proximity to me, rather then them being all around the world.
